I am her

 A promise, what a promise means to me. It means truth. A promise is saying I will do something no matter what. Have I broken a promise? of course, maybe not on purpose, but I have. Well, living with God by my side is like a never ending promise. It's like He is telling me to trust in Him and He promises to keep me. But what does that in-tell? Well for many of us it means a lot of things. But, for me, it means to trust God completely. To trust Him is to know that His promises are for real. That no mater what He will keep His promise. the Bible has many promises. 

 Have you ever wondered why a relationship didn't work out? friends, lovers or even family? Yes, even family. I feel family is the hardest people to accept. Like we did'n't pick the family we were born into. So, why can't we accept our family for who they are. We always put them down, talk about them, and have no concern for them. Is it really always about us? Why do we always think that we matter more than others. Why do we need to think that no matter what, we are right. Maybe that is what really is wrong with this world. We are all so selfish. We only think about ourselves and what we want. What about others. Maybe, just maybe if people would put others first, and I mean that in a way that also puts us first. Showing others that we care for them as a person, as an individual would also let them see who we are as an individual. So they can see how we feel about things and what matters to us. So maybe instead of being selfish and only not only think about us, we should...

 For so long I didn't know who I was. I wife, a mom, a friend, but who was I as a person. I feel lost, like I don't belong. I feel like I'm not important. So have you ever been the pretty girl but then no one liked your personality? well, that is how I feel. It is how I have felt my entire life. Pushed in the corner to forget who I was. Do I know who I am not? Absolute not. I don't have friends, I don't have people who like me or at least that is how I feel. I feel like people over look me. Like I don't exist. I grew up moving around a lot so I never really had a change to have many friends. I meant, I had a few here and there but I moved so much I could even tell you the town I lived in and what school I went to. Maybe I don't know who I am as an individual. I tried to fit in but my wired self always came out. I was like a pretty nerd. But, I wasn't even smart. I knew more about how to survive than to make it in a business world. I only know how to hust...

 I am a woman who made mistakes. I am a woman who didn't know the answer. I am a woman who didn't know how to love. I am a woman who put myself first. I am a woman who never let down my wall. I am a woman who didn't know how to have a good time. I was a woman who didn't communicate. I was a woman who wore my heart on my sleeve. I was a woman who wish I knew how to be real. I AM HER.