LOST!

 For so long I didn't know who I was. I wife, a mom, a friend, but who was I as a person. I feel lost, like I don't belong. I feel like I'm not important. So have you ever been the pretty girl but then no one liked your personality? well, that is how I feel. It is how I have felt my entire life. Pushed in the corner to forget who I was. Do I know who I am not? Absolute not. I don't have friends, I don't have people who like me or at least that is how I feel. I feel like people over look me. Like I don't exist. I grew up moving around a lot so I never really had a change to have many friends. I meant, I had a few here and there but I moved so much I could even tell you the town I lived in and what school I went to. Maybe I don't know who I am as an individual. I tried to fit in but my wired self always came out. I was like a pretty nerd. But, I wasn't even smart. I knew more about how to survive than to make it in a business world. I only know how to hustle. I knew from a very young age to get it myself cause no one would do it for me.  I am LOST!

Location: Willard, NC 28478, USA

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